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August 1, 2011
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I know it’s been a while.  I’m sorry.  But i am in it…deep.  You know what i mean when i say “in it”?  Here are some things that i am celebrating and being thankful for right now.

  • Allowing myself to be vulnerable, even when it isn’t returned. Then celebrating that vulnerability.
  • Letting go of control
  • Little signs that I’m on the right path
  • Moving through my fear
  • Family
  • My journal

And here are some LOVELY ladies that help me get through it and gain some perspective.  Enjoy 🙂





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Water Balloons!

June 20, 2011
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I haven’t filled water balloons in years, I mean YEARS.  On Saturday afternoon I got soaking wet filling about 30 of them for my cousin Anderson’s 9th birthday party.  It was a typical Southern summer day, hot and humid, and once I resided to getting my clothes wet, I embraced it and laughed my ass off while the faucet sprayed every which direction.  There was no quitting.  I was committed to getting every last neon colored balloon filled and tied!

After a whole bunch of jokes with my aunt about the balloons looking like boobs and how we should stuff them in our bras,  I thought since they also resembled easter eggs, we should hide them all around the backyard and let the boys find them and throw them at each other.  That way we wouldn’t have to have teams (we had an odd number) and the fight would last longer than five seconds.  It worked out beautifully.  We stood on the deck and watched the war ensue, yelling out the appropriate sound effects when someone got nailed in the face.  Those boys were having so much fun it was infectious, and even though we weren’t participating, we were soaking up all of their joy and excitement.

When it turned dark, they had a bonfire, ate Transformers cake and ice cream, popped popcorn and watched The Incredibles.  I was informed that evening that I was “awesome” by every boy at that party.  Men my age, take note…I…am…AWESOME!

I deliberately had to fight against my perfectionist, organized self and let all of the events flow that evening.  And as a result, I had a damn good time and felt the joy and playfulness of a child.  And that, my friends, is a rare treat.  One that we should all try to experience more often.

Happy Father’s Day to all those dads out there!!!

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Rainy Days!

June 17, 2011
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I fell asleep to a brilliant thunderstorm last night and was lucky enough to wake up to another one this morning.  I opened all the windows, made coffee in a french press and buscuits and eggs for the kids, while the dogs hide out under my ankles.  It was sweet.  After all of this heat, I welcome the cool, misty, rainy weather we are having today.  We are headed to the bowling alley for a day of fun inside.  If it wouldn’t make the kids so bored, I’d sit in this house all day with the windows wide, just listening to the rain and reading.  I’m so glad I’m not a kid anymore.

What’s beautiful about your Friday?

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Joy Juice!

June 15, 2011
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My friend and fellow strong woman Molly Mahar is empowering women to change their lives with her incredibly inspiring website StrateJoy.  New on her list of fantastic life changing endeavors is something she calls “Joy Juice: Prompts for Positive Growth”.  This “yearly dose” of journal prompts arrives every three days in your inbox, and allows you to do some serious reflecting on your life by asking you questions that encourage thought.  It is so convenient!

For a while I have had a voice deep down inside of me urging me to write.  When I was a child I wrote children’s stories, illustrated them, and even bound them to look like real books.  In middle school my teachers had to find ways to get me to shorten my essays and papers, not lengthen them like most of my classmates.  But at some point, during my angry phase in highschool no doubt, I put away the creator of imaginative stories that flourished within me as a child.  I buried the writer.  I want to dig her up, as morbid as that sounds.  I want to write.  Of course the minute I say that out loud, or put the pen to the paper, the inevitable critic rears its ugly head.  “You want to write?? Why?  You have no original ideas!!  You have an extremely limited vocabulary!  You use the word ‘awesome’ way to much to be a writer!  Writers are smart, do you think you are smart now?!”  And so on, and so forth.  Sound familiar to any of you?

Joy Juice is my first step.  My first step to a daily practice of writing.  I encourage all of you to go to the Stratejoy website and look around.  Read the amazing Blog and check out the incredible things that Molly has to offer.  And if you feel the urge to write like I do, sign up for the Juice.  Silence that inner critic and start writing down your thoughts.  Give yourself ten minutes a day, make a cup of tea, and free write.  You never know what might come out.

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Fresh Starts!

June 15, 2011
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This is where you can find me from now on.  I have a new outlook on life.  Pleasure.  I want to tell you all about the things that turn me on…from music to food…geeky videos to savory recipes.  Bottom line, this is a place for joy and silliness, nothing serious.  I have been thinking a lot lately about relishing every minute of my life.  Becoming more authentically me.  When you start thinking about who you are and what really gets your blood flowing, you start noticing all the things that stay with you on a daily basis.  Something you ate…a kind act you witnessed…a beautiful person…a book your reading…the look of a yellow moon against a perfect cerulean sky.  All the things that you notice on a daily basis that turn you on become something you are grateful for, and you stop noticing the things you (think you) lack.  This blog is all about the things that Turn me on.  Wet my whistle.  Make my heart skip a beat.  Sure, there are things that make my blood boil and piss me off to no end, but isn’t there enough bitching in the world?  For now, I will be grateful and present to everything that is happening in my life…because THIS is my life.  Right now.  Right here.  Come discover with me!  Who knows, maybe you’ll find what really turns you on…

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